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CHAPTER FOUR

 

  "Father," I said, "you have to help me. "

  "I'll be glad to, but I'm not a priest. "

  "I'm going to Hell, and I didn't do a damned thing to deserve being damned. Except for that whole double homicide thing. But it was an accident! Plus, I should get points for saving Justine and her mom. "

  "I'm not a priest, miss. I'm the janitor. And this isn't a Catholic church-we're Presbyterians. "

  "Can you burn me up with holy water?" I had the man by the shirt, was pulling him up on his toes-he was about three inches shorter than me. "Poke me to death with your crucifix?"

  He gifted me with a sweet, loopy grin. "You're pretty. "

  Surprised, I let go of him. He did a shocking thing, then-flung his arms around me and kissed me. Hard. Really very hard, and he put a lot into it, too; his tongue was poking into my mouth and something hard and firm was pressing against my lower belly. He tasted like Wheaties.

  I gently pushed him away, but even so he flew over the pew and landed with a jarring thud near the pulpit. The grin didn't waver and neither, unfortunately, did his erection; I could see the small tent in his chinos. "Do it again," he sighed.

  "Oh, for-just-sleep it off!" I snapped and, to my surprise, his head dropped onto his shoulder and he started to snore. Drunk, then. . . sure. I should have smelled it on him.

  I took another look and cursed myself-of course he was the janitor; he was dressed in blue jeans and a t-shirt that read "D&E Cleaning: We'll Get Your Mess!" In my keyed-up panic, I'd grabbed the first person I had seen. He'd grabbed me back, but that was only fair.

  I was still surprised I had managed to get inside the church without bursting into flame. But nothing like that had happened. The door had opened easily and the church was the way they all were: forbidding, yet comforting, like a beloved but stern grandparent.

  I cautiously sat down on a pew, expecting a severe ass burning. Nothing happened. I touched the Bible in front of me. . . nothing. Rubbed the Bible all over my face-nope.

  Dammit! Okay, I was a vampire. Shocking, but I was getting used to it. Except vampire rules weren't applying! I should be a writhing tower of flame, not sitting impatiently in a pew waiting for God to send my soul to Hell.

  I glanced at the clock on the far wall. It was after five in the morning; the sun would be up soon. Maybe a morning stroll would finish me off.

  I smelled starch, old cotton, and aftershave, heard footsteps, and turned to see the minister walking down the aisle toward me. He was a man in his early 50s, completely bald on top with a white monk's fringe around the sides and back of his head. He wore black slacks and a black short-sleeved shirt. His cheeks were pink from where he had shaved, and he wore thick glasses and sported a heroic Roman nose. A wedding band gleamed on the third finger of his left hand. He was about twenty pounds too heavy for his height, which meant he probably gave the most excellent hugs.

  He took in the scene at a glance: Cleaning Guy passed out and snoring on the floor, and Dead Girl sitting in the pew looking like baked dog shit.

  He smiled at me. "It must be Monday. "

  I ended up telling him the whole story while he fixed coffee in the rectory. I drank three cups and finished with, "Then I came here, but none of the doors or Bibles or anything are hurting me. " I left out the part about the cleaning guy trying to mack on me in front of the pulpit-no need to get anyone in trouble. "You don't have a cross on you, do you?" I added hopefully.

  For reply he unpinned the small silver cross on his collar and handed it to me. I closed my fingers around it, tightly, but nothing happened. I gave it back.

  "You can have it," he said.

  "No, that's all right. "

  "No, really! I want you to have it. "

  His cheeks were flushed, and the color deepened as I grabbed his hand, pressed the cross into it, and folded his fingers closed. "Thanks, but it's yours. You shouldn't give it to a stranger. "

  "A beautiful stranger. "

  "What?" First the cleaning guy, now the minister!

  As if in response to my shocked thought, he blinked and slowly shook his head. "Forgive me. I don't know what's come over me. " He touched his wedding ring absently, and that seemed to give him the strength to look me in the eyes. "Please continue. "

  "There's nothing else. I'm lost," I finished. "I don't have the faintest idea what to do. I'm sure you think I'm nuts, but could you just pretend to believe me and give me some advice?"

  "You're not nuts, and I don't think you're lying," he soothed. He had a faint southern accent which immediately put me in mind of grits and magnolias. "It's obvious you've had a terrible experience and you need-you just need to talk to someone. And maybe rest. "

  I was too tired to stab myself in the heart with my coffee spoon to prove my point. I just nodded.

  "As to why the Bible didn't hurt you, that's quite obvious, m'dear-God still loves you. "

  "Or the rules don't apply to me," I pointed out, but even as I said it I realized how arrogant and ridiculous that was. God's rules applied to each and every person on the planet. . . except Betsy Taylor! Shi. . . yeah. "So you're saying I should stop with the attempts at self-immolation?"

  "At once. " He was still touching his ring, and his voice was stronger now, less dreamy. "You said yourself you helped that woman and her little girl, and you haven't bitten anybody. You're clearly in possession of your soul. " He hesitated, then plunged. "A parishioner of mine works for a-a nice place in downtown Minneapolis. Could I give you her card, and could you call her? If you don't have a car I'll be glad to drive-"

  "I'll be glad to take the card," I said, then added the lie: "I'll call her this morning. "

  The minister and I-he'd told me his name but I had forgotten it-parted on good terms, and when I left he was shaking the janitor awake.

  I headed home. The minister had thought I was a nutjob, but that didn't negate his advice. My old life was over, but I was beginning to see that maybe. . . maybe I could make a new one. I was a heartless denizen of the ravenous undead, but there were ways and ways, and I didn't have to be a lamprey on legs if I didn't want to. For one thing, there were at least six blood banks in this city.

  And God still loved me. So, apparently, did the janitor and the minister, but that was a worry for another time. It seemed pretty obvious to me now, and I wondered why it hadn't occurred to me earlier tonight: when you try to kill yourself nine or ten different ways, and none of them work, obviously you're meant to be around for a while. Incredibly, I'd been given a second chance. I had no plans to waste it.

  My house looked exactly the same on the outside, but as soon as I walked in-some boob had left the door unlocked (oh, wait, that was me)-I saw a real mess. Quite a few of my things had been packed into boxes, which were stacked haphazardly all over my living room. I smelled my stepmother's perfume (Lauren, and she used too much of it) on the air and had a horrible thought.

  I rushed to my bedroom and flung open the closet door. My clothes were there, and so were my Stride Rites and the cheap flats I'd bought for casual days at the office. But my babies, the Manolo Blahniks, Pradas, Ferragamos, Guccis, and Fendis. . . all gone.

  My stepmother had told the mortician to dress me in one of her old suits, slapped a pair of her used knockoffs on my feet, then headed to my house and grabbed my good shoes for herself.

  While I was still processing this information, I heard a tentative maiow and looked up in time to see Giselle peeking at me from the doorway. I smiled and took a step toward her, only to see her puff up to twice her size and run away so quickly she hit the far wall, bounced off, and kept going.

  I sat down on my bed and cried.

  * * * * *

  Crying's okay while it lasts, but you can only do it for so long. And it's weird to do it when you apparently can't make tears anymore (did this mean I wouldn't pee or sweat, either?). Anyway, eventually you're done, and you have to figure
out what to do next.

  I flopped down on my bed, limp as a noodle and completely exhausted. And thirsty. But I wasn't going to do anything about that now. Except maybe snack on Giselle-no, I wasn't going to do that, either. I was just going to lie here-my room faced east-and let the sun finish me off. If I woke up dead again, I'd take it as a sign that I was supposed to move on. If I didn't wake up. . . well, at least that was one problem solved. Hell couldn't be worse than a Wal-Mart after midnight, right?

  With that thought in my head, I fell asleep.